My Black Christmas...the day i lost my...

This Christmas mark an anniversary and serve as my Black Christmas...songs wishing for white Christmas...well mine is dark black...

What do ppl do during Christmas...i wonder...i never ever celebrate a 'real' Christmas...to me is just like another ordinary day...except will be going to church that is not on sunday...to attend and hear what the pastor or reverend has to preach to remind us what this day actually mean and this and that...ppl around me will go crazy finding present to give...to give and receive...i never receive one...so i dont know the meaning of Christmas...where TV especially cartoons focus on...to find the real meaning of Christmas...and YES!! i watch CARTOON!!...

And sometimes i will be ask to perform for Christmas event...so at least there is something special on that day...if i am called that is...apart from that...is just another ordinary day...but being just another ordinary day and notfeeling the Christmas 'merry and joy' is not enough...25th become from bad to worse...

Is been a year since that little incident happen...and what a day to happen...a day i will never forget...to remind myself of my own ignorance...serves me right you might say but still the pain is there if i am to think about it...i wont cry though...just wont have a good feeling...and to some of you, you know what i mean when i dont feel good..."you wouldnt like me when i am angry' scenario...lol

To those i wished you a Merry Christmas i meant it...be merry and enjoy the festival...but i will only be lying to myself if i am merry that day...so that is why i dont wish...it will only sadden me by reminding me when i lost my...

Im Back

Now that i am awake from my deep slumber/hibernation is time for this blog to be filled with rubbish from my point of view of course...and not to forget ppl around me

i would like to take this opportunity to wish all a Happy New Year!! A year has just almost gone by replaced by a new one...so what you gonna do this year? Same old same old or planning to do something that rise above the rest...to be different for once in your life...to beat the mundane life...or succumb and surrender to everyday life hoping for tomorrow to come only to wish it away and hope for the next day...

Like i say...your life your choice!!

PS: Notice i dont wish Merry Christmas....i have my reason...those i wished...im just wishing you a merry Christmas...and pretending to be merry myself...i will explain on the next post

It Takes Two To Become One

This is from my experience...and of course others contributions...but what i am about to say is still under 'research'...hehe :P

'it takes two to become one'...that is my hypothesis...so what does it mean? what i mean is not that...hehe i know what you are thinking...but what i meant is that for two people...regardless the background or other circumstances...we take at least...AT LEAST two things in common to be together...as friends, or even having a relationship...and of course, the more similarity, the more stronger the bond...and as i said before...is still under research and still a hypothesis...

The number 2...is very unique...especially to nature...i will explain more in the upcoming post...but to treat you with suspense...look all around you...majority...mostly come in pair...want to know more? tune in next time...hehe

Please if you have anything to add...please do so...i need more information, experiences, findings if you have, anything that can help me support this hypothesis or prove it wrong...

The Heart Of Man

Just now in the afternoon, after my exam, it was raining very very heavily...in few minutes...err, more like almost an hour of rain, one part of my college was flooded...the scene was magnificent, was like watching a miniature of 'The Day After Tomorrow', remember the scene where the wave was so high that it spill into the city? I saw the water from the 'longkang' spilling over to the road...like a wave form...cool!!

So the place was fully flooded, and a bus went through, it was until almost the tyre height of the bus!! Imagine how flooded that is...so we used an alternative road to avoid the flood, and we saw a proton saga zoom pass...without any hesitation...then straight went into the water and guess what...mati engine la...we were laughing...ridiculing him...

Not just that, even we reach our block, we still want to go down there to have a look an d see what happen to him...and see if anyone as ignorant as him...so we can ridicule their actions...

Seems like some people beat us to it...there was a small group of malays standing there watching the scene too...so i tot well, guess we are not the only 'sakai' people...but alas, i was wrong...very wrong...guess is hard to see the heart of man...

The group was not there to spectate and ridicule...but did a very noble thing...which i can say i am very proud of them and down with myself...we seem to look down on them...but in this situation, we lose hands down....what they did is offer service to push the car out of the water...in the rain some more...and what we do is stand and do nothing...what a pitiful sight for us...

what happen today is very meaningful to me...it makes me wonder...what makes a person tick? we definitely cant judge a person by its look, personality, their race, their 'kind' so to speak...a heart of man is indeed an enigma...

The Ugly Truth About Nature

Ever heard of eat or be eaten? The law of nature...to survive or die...mother nature is an elegant lady but deadly and 'sadistic' with her ways of life...hehe...dont understand? well, see all around you, all is created in such a way that we call it perfect...in harmony...but as you go into details...nature is ruthless...if you know what i mean

So when we talk about nature, human is no exception as we are part of the creation...so eat or be eaten, survival of the fittest principles still apply to us...althouth not all action like those you see in the animal planets where spiders feed on insects, lions and tigers gnaw their way through a dead creature with 'lipstick' on them...haha but still humans have to do what they have to do in order to survive...and this is the ugly truth about the nature in us...we LIE!!

In order to survive, or in another words, 'get away' from problems, we tend to lie...so why do yours truly says nature in us? Studies had been carried out on children...the most innocent stage of a human lives...where we start to grow and learn...even not expose to lie...the habit of lying...they still lie...why? how? where on earth they learn to lie even when they dont know anything about it? is in the nature...studies shows that children do have these habits...so innocent yet so misleading...of course they dont realise what they are doing....

We lie to protect ourselves...this is the law of nature...no matter what, we will protect ourselves by any means...so it wont be a surprise when you had been lied, or you are the one lying all the way...even talking crap, talking big are a derivatives of lying...Note what President Licoln said or you might end up digging own grave...your life, your choice...

'Great talker, great liar' - French proverbs

'No man has a good enough memory to be a successful liar' - Abraham Lincoln

PS : Im not writing this blog to ask you not to lie...hehe is just painful to know when someone has been lying to you...it wont hurt if he dont know...correct? ;P - ThE ugLy TruTh -

Finals Are Here

This week will be my Finals in UTM...busy times i might say...this shows that the culture of studying last minute is still around and everywhere...not many i dare say study in advance to prepare for the exam..most of us only study when we feel the"pressure" mounting and when the exam is knocking on our doors...apart from that, we play, we do sports, we hang out, but none will have any relation with the subjects :P

So it is true that we are too exam-based where the government, parents and society focus too much upon our grades that they fail to see the true nature of studying...to gain knowledge...this is very sad because grades are the culprit for making us dumb and "empty" inside...just to pass we study then we forget once is over...what is the point?

To be knowledgeable in something which ends up getting average grades...no one will notice you because your knowledge is overshadowed by your grades...so why bother right? Grades come first then the knowledge comes later...think about it...is you life, your choice ;)

Welcome To HeaVen On EarTh

This will be my second blog i ever created so far...but the first here in blogger...

This blog is dedicated to all the experience, feelings, actions, thoughts and so forth that i would like to put in ink...err...e-ink... :P

Thank you for taking part of your time to spend here...it would mean a lot if you can give me constructive comments to better myself in the near future...please indulge yourself with my thoughts...ENJOY!!

PS : Not everything i write here concern about me...but it is something that happen in my lifetime that i feel like is best to share with others and learn...dont you think so? ;)